I’m a cringing right now… Do you want to know why?
I had this sudden urge to google some of my old boyfriends. Who knows why. I must be some crazy psycho path. I did this a couple years ago and had only found one. But now I’ve found 2 more. Hurray for blogs. Ohh, scary. If I can find them, maybe they can find me. Doo doo, doo doo. I better watch what I say.
I have no idea why I have this strange desire to know what they are up to. Are they married, have kids, have a decent job, have any hair left? Forgotten about me? Hate me? Resent me? Do you want to know stuff like that? Yikes, I feel so creeped out.
Actually, I think it is because I want to mend any bad feelings they may have towards me. For some crazy, insane reason, I like to remain friends with people (there are a few exceptions…)Â It gives me some sense of peace. I can die knowing that so and so no longer is hurting because of me. These boys effected my life in a great way.
I guess I want to say to them “Thank you for loving me, putting up with me. Thank you for seeing beyond all the silly, selfish, mundane things that made me… ME. Thank you for the memories. I’m sorry. ”
Confessions time…. how many of you have search for old flings on the internet?
Come on now, be honest, or am I really the only crazy one out there.
My name is Manda and I love creating 
I guess the true question is… should I contact them? Is that tooo super weird??
I totally google old friends and boyfriends. I’m just so curious. But I wouldn’t contact them – I’m too wimpy.
I have goggled some exes in the past, but I haven’t had any luck finding them. I’ve also searched for them on the court website to see if they’ve been arrested. Clearly I dated the wrong guys in my youth.
Dude, the question is more likely, “Who DOESN’T Google their old boyfriends?”
Mine have no internet lives (Which means they, ya know, actually HAVE A LIFE), so I have very little info on any of them. One of them wrote me on classmates.com, and it was nice to get an update, though.
Just googled an old boyfriend and actually found his wife’s website! Interesting to see his picture after 5 years and see what his life is like. Now the question is should I keep up with his blog or let it go?!
Am I included in this? Does 7th grade count? I have been waiting for some closure this whole time. I finally feel alive.
BTW…I stalked your parents and Sabre at the temple the other day.